i need a hug!!!!

too much caffeine, too much sleep?
its been ages since i last been to indooropilly. mynn drove us (fazz, ili, rabbit, me) there since its friday nite when it closed at 9 pm. it'd very great to ask some more people to tag along but sorry peeps, the car will only permissible for 5 ppl maximum. whut a strict australia's rule. haha. its good though. ermm, by the way nothing really interests me there eventhough there were heaps bargains. fazz n mynn did grab few tops and bottoms, and me as usual ended up 'cuci mata'. while wandering around, someone had really caught me attention. she's such an eye catcher, something special and significant on her that makes me glance at her more than twice. ahh, i realized, she's just looks like aliah nasreen, my high school mate whom i really miss. she's back home for summer hol right now ( i wish i could meet u aly). then, we spent the rest of the time lepak minum at food court.. while having ice choc from gloria jeans, ili suddenly yelled, 'cam craig david siot!'. all of us just stared at him at the same time.. too bad. die perasan.. but, seriously, he's just soo similar. another clone of craig david but slightly fairer. at the same time, it reminds me on someone else. ermmm.. anyways.. tonite was concluded as great. no more or less; full stop.


trivia: if u had too less sleep.. then ur having a headache, u'll go to sleep. what if u had too much sleep, then ur having a headache.. what are u gonna do?

between two friends, i would rather die..

i just couldn't express my feelings to anyone here. but, i admit, i really need a shoulder to lean on now. right now!! what would u do when u are in the middle of two contradictory situations? in one side, there is a good friend whom i might say in a strained situation and confusion, and another side is also a friend who currently trying to get over distractions from her/his life. i'd say both of them repel. but, they are friends who need supports from you certainly. and i know, i will never betray any of them and i am happy to see them happy. both of them! i feel so guilty if im not in the right lane or am i making things worsening? trust me, i always want to see things better. but, its just the fact that being someone in the middle will at least hurt one of the side's feelings. how sure do i know that she or he is happy? am i an angel who sits beside him/her 24/7 and sure that they are happy? nooo, im not. im just a plain and normal human being, whose playing my role as a good friend, i hope. and now, i am in dilemma. which side am i supposed to be, a friend, a friend, or die?


Is it enough to love,
is it enough to breath,
somebody rip my heart out,
And leave me here to bleed,
Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life,
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please..

no specific subject
a song dedicated to my beloved friends (u know who u are). one thing to emphasise here, korang semua tak pupus , but korang mungkin jauh.. the song 'pupus' by dewa doesn't suit you really, yet this might be the one. don't worry, life is fair. Allah sudah pon tetapkan our fate and kita kena menerima nya. have faith.. believe in yourself! by the way, i'll always be around as a friend for any love and care needed. well, have a go with those words..


Jauh by Cokelat

Hari kulalui tanpa hadirmu lagi
Kucoba ingkari sepi ini
Mengapa terjadi hancur kau akhiri
Satu kata janji tak kembali

Seribu tanya sesak di dada
Haruskah bimbang meraja
Lelah tepis harapanku
Sendiri mencari bayangmu

Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh, kutahu kau jauh

Biarlah semua seperti apa adanya
Kuterus mencoba relakannya
Satu yang kuminta, kembalilah padanya
Kutahu di sana ada dia

Kutunggu dirimu
Selalu kutunggu
Walaupun kutahu
Kau jauh, kutahu kau jauh


:::belated birthday wish:::
Ana Yahya, UIA, Malaysia - 22 May

one beautiful moment had with these nine great people



front left: denise, kimah, ili, kak zila
back left: rabbit, mas, huda, mynn, sarah, salwa

the idea was first brought up by mastura and all of us agreed to have netball as one of the gurls activities here. despite that it required an entry fee of $32.50 each person, it doesn't matter as long as we enter the league and we did put hope to win. starting from mid march (if im not mistaken), we've been practising almost every week(eh, mmg every week kan?), been committed and willing to sacrifice the pleasure of sleeping, worked so hard learning and improving skills, built up stamina, me keep changing positions (flexible konon, hehe) but most of all, we really had fun and it did strengthen the bond between us. we've had 9 matches (correct me if im wrong)and the final match was on last tuesday, 18th may. the result was concluded that.... we lost all games except one which was luckily 'menang tanpa bertanding'. however, we won the spirit, the courage and the strengths shown and possessed by all players and also our devoted supporters. thanx guys and gurls for supporting us. and now, its all over. no more morning practice, no more missed the passing ball, no more 'stepping', no more 'salwa, badan gerak dulu baru letak tangan; jaga orang tu bebetul'. ahhh, i really gonna miss all of you guys having practice n match together. what a sweet memory. lastly, go netball gurls!!!

dipetik dari artikel "sejarah brissy netball team" yang ditulis oleh: si salwa. tapi di sini, pengubahsuaian dilakukan sesuka hati.


:::belated birthday wishes:::
Aishah Hatta, Campus Lodge, UQ - 18 May
Niza Yusof, UTM, Malaysia - 18 May

catching up
its been ages since i last chat with a few of my friends. everyone is having their own and different lives, different priorities, different schedules. penghalang paling utama is different time. eg: australia and the states. so, everytime i have the opportunity to have chats with them, im gonna make the most of it. tanye sume menda, catch up with everything, i'll make sure that im in touch with them. and i really feel good when im done. =) btw, wanna see how time flies so fast? its already the time for those ppl who currently doing preparation such as a-levels sitting for their finals and will fly soon. 18 months berlalu dgn sgt cepat.. now, some of them have been offered pon from universities they applied. congratulations.. sabar yer kawan-kawan, tak lama jer lagi korg akan terbang.. terbang ke dunia yg totally different from aspects of culture and values, dunia yg mungkin lebih seronok, more happening, mungkin juga lebih mencabar, so challenging.. to all my friends who'll be sitting for their BIG exams, im wishing you the very best of luck. specially those dekat KMYS, KMB, Intec, KTJ, Taylors College, and sumer institutions la. not to forget, to kawan2 kat ireland, selamat menempuhi peperiksaan.. Allah sentiasa bersama hamba Nya yg berusaha sambil mengingati Nya.. amin..


:::belated birthday wishes:::
Hussin Ali Idris, me lil bro, cheras, malaysia - 16 May
Hasz, UNITEN, bangi - 13 May

:::16 May - selamat hari guru kepada guru-guru ku semua dulu dan sekarang termasuk lah emak ku yang juga seorg guru. sangat la ku kenang jasamu:::

diserang insomnia!!
salams.. dua tiga hari ni, aku mmg tido lambat. ada satu hari ni aku tak tido langsung... aku rase aku kene virus 'taklehtido' dah ni. tolong aku... camne ni.. aku susah dah nak tido. aku takut sbb time tido aku tak btul dah. lucky me sume exam aku final ni mmg starts at 11.15 am the earliest. so, hopefully tak la overslept.. tapi pape pon, aku kene gak set time tido aku ni cam dulu. tapi takleh start ngan malam ni la. eh, dah pagi dah. still mata aku segar bugar lagi.. adoooiii...



suddenly, i realized that i miss someone.
i miss the old you, the only you.
it would be very very great if you will be the only you,
it would be much pleasure if only..
i could turn back time.

huhuhu, terjiwang sebentar.. nwayz, aku just put up a pic kat atas profile aku tu. that pic was captured masa sunset kat luar sea world, gold coast. alamak, gamba ni pon jiwang sey. tp takper, amik korg. huhahua.

aku skrg kat IT Lab saje nyibuk2 ngan bdak bdak IT. they have a task to be submitted tomorrow. fazz tgk tekun buat keje, sambil pasang lagu. best gak lepak lab malam2 ni, takde orang. so, leh la buat cam umah sendiri. heheh. si rabbit tgh masyuk ngadap pc gak. tp aku tak bape sure die tgh buat per. rasenya die tgh usha2 blog die. nak tukar skin baru la tu. tukar skin cam tukar baju. =p faiez lak kat hujung sudut tu pon tgh focus gile buat keje. tak dengar sepatah suara pon. ili jugak la yg paling bersemangat skali. die tgh berusaha nak siapkan report die which due tak lama lai. i know u can do it ili!! kepada kawan2 IT ku, selamat siapkan keje ok. penting woo assignment camni eventhough weigh skit jer. skit skit lama lama jadi bukit. skrg, aku jugak la yg terkapai kapai sorg2 sbb tak tau nak buat ape. ingat tadi nak tido jer kat bilik, tp nak gak ikut. but, penat semalam tak tido still ada lagi la. lega sey dah takde assignment besar2 dah, sume sudah dihantar. skrg tinggal few quizzes and then finals. cepat nya masa berlalu!!

wocay lah, i think better aku buat sthing berfaedah skit. nak baca econ1010 lah. dah few topics tak cover lai ni. catcha later. toodles..

ingat tak apa Mr Aziz cakap?


we, budak2 Cromwell College has been given a task to perform something representing malaysian culture during International Night this thursday. nak ikutkan hati semua orang, mmg kami malas dah nak perform2 ni. kalau during fresher year dulu, ok la. but, since malaysians (sapa lagi kalau bukan majoriti nya Petronas scholars) are the international students yg paling ramai kat sini, they really need our involvement. it doesn't matter what the performance is. so, we all the girls have decided to perform a simple 'dikir barat' which doesn't really need hard work and lots time to practise and coordinate compared to traditional dance we performed last year. BUT, we really need commitment and cooperations from each of us. Mr Aziz always mentioned about team work during his visits here. menda cam ni la kita kene ada team work. kita kene la cooperate and sit together, brainstorm, so that hasil nya bagus and berkualiti. if there is a gathering and discussion, kita jangan la skipped or missed them. bagi la cooperation for those who are incharged. then, kita datang on time. be punctual, dump away the tardiness. jangan terinfluence dengan istilah 'janji melayu' yg selalu nya lewat 30 minit ahead. so that, kita tak membuang masa kita and orang lain jugak. everyone has their own commitment, other more important things need to be done. it applies to the perspective of studies too. kalau ada study group cakap nak belajar Biology (as contoh), then belajar la Biology. tak payah la belaja History plak. kesian kat orang yang tengah semangat nak blaja Biology that time. be focus, and jangan buang masa orang yang masa tu datang nak belaja Biology. do some preparations, sit together, share thoughts and opinions, discuss topic by topic. yang tahu ajar mereka yang tak tau, jangan la kedekut ilmu. yang tak tau pulak jgn la diam saja. ask the experts, 'malu bertanya sesat jalan' kan. yang pandai, give supports kepada yang kurang. yang kurang tu, kuatkan semangat and dont give up. ini la peranan kawan... ini la jugak apa yang Mr Aziz nak from kita. dia tak nak tengok kita sorang-sorang jer dapat 7 flat, dia nak tengok semua. if one person can do it, obviously the others will also can. yang penting, TEAM WORKING. tolong-menolong la sesama kita ok. this thing will also goes to me as well. im not blaming anybody, i might also do the same mistakes. kita hanya la manusia yang lemah kan. tapi, pape pon, hari ini mesti lah lebih baik dari semalam, dan hari esok mesti lah baik dari hari ini. mari la kita berusaha untuk membaiki diri hari ke hari.. Face the challenges as opportunities. Insya Allah..

:::belated birthday wishes:::
Wafa, UPM, Malaysia - 3 May
Che Fara, Taylors College, Malaysia - 5 May
Dottie, Indiana University, U.S.A - 7 May
Mighty - *i dont know uni*, Japan - 7 May

blog yang static??
salams everyone!~! why is it static? (curik word ni from blog najwa). sorry to all who visited my blog this whole week.. bukan takde apa nak diciter kan. satu, mmg everyone is kinda busy kan these days, assignment due berlambak gell. dua, computer ku diserang virus. actually, sampai skrg ni tak btul lagi ni. nanti tetibe jer die buat gile, pastu kene la fix again sasser worm tu. dah la skrg ni saat-saat memang kene guna pc nak buat assignment. geram btol.. sabar yer salwa.. orang yang sabar tu tergolong dalam orang-orang yg beriman.. i hope so..

uishh, tetiba terlintas dlm kepala.. aku dah 2nd year, and next year will be my final year here. masa datang sini in 2002, i was 18 years old. in fact, some of my frens were still 17. ooohh, how sweet the number is. hehehe. and skrg, aku realize aku dah pon 20 tahun 4 bulan genap today. istilah cakap 18 tahun is a teenager, while 20 tahun is yet an adult. dalam masa 2 tahun jer, istilah pon boley berubah. waah, how fast time flies. dalam masa 2 thn, what have i done? was i using the time efficiently and effectively? was i a good human-being? was i a good slave to the Creator? was i a good daughter? was i a good sister? was i a good friend? and was i such a good muslimah? wallahualam..


since most of us are currently affected by tense and pressure, also uptight and stressed.. i attach this untuk renungan dan peringatan semua termasuk diri sendiri:

"Oleh itu, maka (tetapkanlah kepercayaanmu) bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan,
Bahawa sesungguhnya tiap-tiap kesukaran disertai kemudahan. Kemudian apabila engkau telah selesai (sesuatu urusan), maka bersungguh-sungguhlah engkau berusaha (urusan yang lain), Dan kepada Tuhanmu sahaja hendaklah engkau berharap" Asy-Syarh:5-8

kawan, sahabat, friend, buddy, teman
tadi baca blog seorg kawan. pastu berminat dgn her entry titled monolog buat sahabat. tersentuh perasaan aku.. tak tau napa.. tetiba tersedey.. terasa adakah aku merupakan seorang kawan yang baik? seorang teman sejati yg diimpikan setiap insan? teringat zaman persekolahan.. teringat juga zaman foundation.. teringat kepada semua kawan-kawan.. teringat segala kenangan dan pengalaman.. gembira dan sedey tetap dikongsi bersama.. how do we define kawan? ask yourself.. its actually up to individuals.. ada orang define kawan as seseorang yang boleh berkongsi rasa, cerita, tempat meluahkan perasaan, bila sedih diluahkan dan dikongsi bersama, yang berada di samping kita both ketika susah dan senang, and etc.. tapi, perasan tak jarang-jarang sekali seorang kawan berkongsi kegembiraan (contoh nya dapat result cemerlang) dengan kawan yang lain. they will rather tend to tell and share with their family dulu instead. ermm, apa makna seorang kawan bagi saya? ermm.. kalau kamu rasa kamu kawan saya, hah itu la makna seorang kawan bagi saya.. kalau tak faham, tak per.. nanti satu hari sure kamu faham.. below i attach a lyric lagu Kawan by UNIC. sangat comel la lagu ni.. lyric pon comel.. baca yerr..


U.N.I.C - Kawan

Kawan.. bertahun kita bersama
Bagai semalam baru bersua
Kawan.. di hadapan oh indahnya
Kita bersama berkelana

Namun kita jauh di dunia sendiri
Bekalan sendiri, Impian sendiri
Meski pun jauh namun
Kita tetap bersama
Dek ruang yang memisahkan kita

Kawan.. hidup ini umpama langit
Yang tidak selalu cerah
Kawan.. hidup ini umpama awan
Yang tidak selalu putih

Ingatlah, bintang-bintang di langit
Takkan terus berkelipan
Ingatlah, pelangi yang indah
Pasti akan hilang

Kawan.. jangan biarkan dirimu
Seperti rama-rama
Cantik namun akhirnya
Menjadi perhiasan di dinding

Kawan.. jangan biarkan dirimu
Umpama lipan dan kala
Berbisa namun akhirnya
Menjadi perhiasan dimeja tulis

Oh kawan jadilah seperti si matahari
Membakar diri demi insan sejagat
Oh kawan jadilah seperti bulan purnama
Menerangi malam yang gelap gelita
Menunjukkan jalan demi umat semesta

kalau langit dan awan pon tak sentiasa putih dan cerah, ini apatah lagi manusia. jadi, kepada kawan-kawan semua yg menyayangi kawan2, mari la kita sentiasa maafkan kawan kita kalau kawan kita tersalah kata, terkasar bahasa, terpukul, terpekik, termerajuk.. maafkan la mereka ok. let us forgive and forget. Wallahua'lam..

buat kawan-kawan brissy ku (ex, senior, junior), there's no other word to describe how thankful am i having you guys around except GRATEFUL. Thank you so much for the friendship. may Allah bless all of you and grant you in akhirat kelak, Insya Allah.

______________________________________________________________________________

momento and tribute buat kawan sekolah menengah..



pic was taken during my 20th birthday celebration this year. kehadiran was unexpected where 1/3 of my batch turned out that night (jumlah yg agak memberangsangkan for a gathering). love ya guyss..



froggies_9701: at times, i really miss the moment we had throughout the years. five years being in college will be one of the most valuable moment i've had in my life. hey friends, whatever you are, wherever you are, earn them! stay precious, stay you!! you are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are grey, you never know dear, how much i love you all, please don't take, my sunshine away..
<---thoroughbred 9701--->

sempena ANZAC day

nah, buat tatapan semua.. ni special edition nyer pose ni.. bkn slalu leh dapat. hehe. actually, gamba ni was taken lebey kurang one month ago masa skirmish under MSAQUT. ada gaya askar anzac tak?



front left: nadia, aishah, kak zila
back left: rashma (not sure the spelling), mastura, zehan, mynn, salwa, kak su, kak kay

its fazz's bday!!

wuhhooo, another person has joined the club. selamat hari jadi ke-20 kepada miss Nurfazlina Ismail or known as comey. we celebrated fazz's bday during usrah last nite together with masturas (both). and we've also done a BIG suprise to fazz last nite. memula ingat nak campak air or baling telur tapi tak sampai hati. kui kui kui.. to know more about it pls visit her blog. and today, we've been wandering around almost half of the day at the city and south bank. though most of the shops closed, its still a great day out nway. fazz gave us a birthday treat which was lunch at city wok! (dah lama tak makan situ..) thanks for the treat comey! and thanks for the layanan special from huda whose been working at city wok today.

lastly, to comey: stay comey, semoga panjang umur dan diberkati hidup mu.. amin...




at south bank..

someone i adore so much~!

suatu ketika dahulu:

anak: ayah, tu tanda fuel warning dah tunjuk tu. bila ayah nak isi minyak ni? nanti kereta berhenti tgh jalan.. takutt..
ayah: jgn risau, cukup lagi minyak ni. nanti kita stop kat mana2 station minyak PETRONAS pertama kita jumpa ok.
anak: ayah takmau isi kat tempat lain ker, bkn sama jer ker minyak ni?
ayah: i am a loyal PETRONAS employee. whatever will happen, i am still going to search for a PETRONAS station to fill up my tank.

(sang anak mengangguk2 buat2 faham)

sekarang:

anak: ayah, tanda fuel warning dah kuar tu. kena isi minyak ni..
ayah: ok, bagitau ayah if ada tanda station minyak PETRONAS berdekatan. boleh la hampa nak gi beli papa kat kedai mesra tu.
anak: ermm, since dulu lagi kita wonder kenapa ayah tak pernah isi minyak kat tempat lain kecuali PETRONAS. kenapa ek?
ayah: ok, ayah sekarang berkhidmat untuk PETRONAS, iaitu salah satu drpd sebilangan kecil syarikat owned by melayu. 1st reason, kalau bukan kita yang nak memajukan melayu, siapa lagi? to go specific, syarikat2 minyak lain kebanyakkan nya owned by non-muslim (american, british). kita nak mengkayakan derg ker? kenapa kita tak nak memajukan syarikat kita? 2nd reason: salah satu element yg sepatutnya tertanam dalam diri setiap pekerja employed by PETRONAS is loyalty. to be such a good employee, kita kene la loyal kepada company. walau apa pon terjadi, ayah memang akan cuba sedaya upaya isi minyak kat station PETRONAS jugak. buat apa kita bekerja suku abad dengan mereka tapi not being loyal? employee apa kah itu?

(sang anak baru la faham..)

:::cerita di atas adalah kisah benar, cuma telah ditulis dlm version berlainan. ia diceritakan sebagai salah satu contoh to become a loyal person. tp, itu hanya lah contoh loyal to a company or corporation:::


kepada rakan-rakan ku including PETRONAS scholars, di harap cerita di atas dapat memberi sedikit manfaat at least kat kita. as we all know, loyalty is one of PETRONAS's shared values. so, bila korg dah kena kerja ngan PETRONAS nanti, be loyal la. kalau nak loyal to a company we gonna serve pon susah, macam mana plak kita nak loyal to our agama? please think about it.. kita usaha la sesama untuk menjadi seorang yg loyal.. kepada keluarga, suami (bakal), bangsa, negara. dan yg paling penting sekali, jadi la loyal kepada agama kita Islam, dan pencipta kita Allah swt.





ayah, i wish you all the best in your life. semoga Allah sentiasa memberkati rezeki dan usaha ayah.semoga Allah pour you with happiness, dunia dan akhirat. semoga Allah sentiasa memberi sifat loyal tu kat ayah. u've been loyal to Him, im sure He will reward you Insya Allah. amin..

otak cam separuh kering
alhamdulillah, leganya aku dah abis segala hempas pulas sepjg this week ngan berakhirnya in-tute quiz intro to micro econ and mid sem intro to management ptg semalam. tapi, ia bkn nya berakhir di sini. perjuangan masih panjang. a huge gigantic (ni sumer influenced by treasure hunt aritu) assignment is coming up. tapi mlm ni mmg aku nak rehat. otak aku mmg hampir kering semlm. right after exam kat steele building tu, masa aku nak keluar hantar answer sheet kat depan, aku terlanggar kerusi kat dpn and aku jalan terhoyong hayang cam orang gila. mata aku tetiba kelam. nasib baik tak pengsan ke ape. kluar jer terus ter bumped into huda n najwa yg berjaya menceriakan kembali keadaan aku. actually, apa aku nak ckp is itu la citer di sebalik ke'tidak-bagusan-emosi' aku arini. kalau aku buat sesiapa terasa, im really really sorry tau..


here i've got another new template curik from blogskins. but, im still stuck with pink la (nak buat camne aishah, pink kan lawarrrr). hehe. tapi as long as tak se-shocking pink dulu la kan. occay, seems like takda menda nak blog dah ni, i'll catcha later. toodles.

ke arah mencari haluan tuju hidup...
im nervous, im scared.
what am i afraid of?
or... am i actually feel so inferior?
yes, i think thats it.
i am feeling so down. so inferior of myself.
but, i have to proceed. if not, i failed.
come on salwa..

apa masalah blogger ni??? satu, other bloggy's latest entries cannot be read by me. dua, my entry has been deleted but its been shown. tiga, i've typed a new one lama dah but its just appear now on my screen. ish ish. sabar...

:::belated birthday wishes:::
Mastura, Room 182 Lockley- 6 April
Eetch, Kolej Mara Banting, Malaysia - 7 April
Atiey, Perak, Malaysia - 7 April
Lin Ghani, Inti College, Malaysia - 15 April

Autumn Gathering, Midginbill Hill

starting from Monday, 12th April till wednesday afternoon, i've had a camping with 25 other peserta yang melalui hari hari yg penuh ilmu, cabaran and fun dan it was ended up with satu pengalaman, satu memori, satu kenangan, satu tanda persahabatan, satu bukti ukhuwah sejati.. jika ingin disampaikan melalui perkataan, 18 hari pon tak cukup i think. it was a 3-days camping packed with activities that were really organized, meaningful, well-structured. i am so proud of all ahli ahli biro program that has been asked to plan the schedule and they did reallly well. i want to take this special moment to congratulate semua yg terlibat, kak su and syahrom, ketua ketua biro dan ahli2 esp biro program yg worked very hard, struggled to make sure things get done well (its great guys), biro makanan - (makcik2 dining hall), biro logistik (Sorry, aku ditarik oleh huda). its the first program organised by brissies and alhamdulillah kita berjaya. pape pon, theres still rooms for improvement ayy.

conclusion: aku taktau camna nak cite panjang panjang, but i really enjoyed and make the most of it. not only having fun, but learnt something important and significant in our lives. finally, highway is the best!!!!

goes to everyone especially denise: It is better to have loved and lost than never to have lost at all.
- quoted by Samuel Butler